2006年1月22日

Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless. Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless. Little white flowers will never awaken you, not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you. Angels have no thought of ever returning you. Would they be angry if I thought of joining you? Gloomy Sunday. Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all. My heart and I have decided to end it all. Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad, I know. But let them not weep, let them know that I'm glad to go. Death is no dream, for in death I'm caressing you. With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you. Gloomy Sunday. Dreaming, I was only dreaming. I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, dear. Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you. My heart is telling you how much I wanted you. Gloomy Sunday.

47 則留言:

littleoslo 說...

this is ur own blog.

but dun be sad for too long.

同事E 說...

很喜歡下雨天, 因為只喜歡雨後陽光!

Miss Lee 的陽光天快來!

熊一豆 說...

misslee,抄抄歌詞就算了,這首歌可別去聽它。會令這個blog的讀者擔心的。

我明白……且稱為Gulliver的困境吧。

chanchan 說...

世界有時比我們想像的簡單:陰天之後一定有晴天,天氣報告說,星期二又見陽光了。

moon 說...

我是Miss Lee的讀者
加油!!

jojo lam 說...

MS lee,

don't be unhappy....
我有聽呢首歌牙!!唔太好既感覺-_-!
我有套戲dvd~遲d借比你!係柏林影展都有拎幾個awards…~不過好dark
plz dun die~haha
support你

鳳凰藍 說...

再難過也會過的!Tomorrow is another day!加油啊Miss Lee!^_^

Aster 說...

明白的自會明白,不要氣餒~~~

sf 說...

珍重珍重.

208/209 說...

208: miss lee, 我們這邊廂的天氣是星期一至七都gloomy,氣力都花在提神醒腦上了。所以像這樣的音樂是不大敢聽的。

209: 不過感覺上還是好了很多了。有朋友寫信來提醒:「大海嘯劫後餘生,就不要花太多氣力掙扎,反正也去不了哪裡,不如放鬆點隨得它帶你去哪裡就哪裡,持盈保泰,可能另有生天。」說得很好,我們牢牢記住。

208: 要持盈保泰呀老友。下回茶聚,請妳吃潤一點的甜品吧。

Riscilla 說...

Dear Fanny,

How are you? I hope you're doing well.

I have been reading your blog for a while and this post really makes me worry about you. Come on! Do not despair! Don't take what your students said seriously! If they did not listen to you it is their misfortune.

Fanny, take care and do not stress out about it. Things will fall into place and work out, they always have!

Best wishes from your long lost friend
Riscilla

bull the helena 說...

a 16-year-old boy from florida flew to iraq alone after his journalism class.

http://www.cnn.com/2005/US/12/29/teen.iraq.ap.ap/

http://www.cnn.com/2005/US/12/30/teen.iraq/

your students at least won't make you worry about their safety after taking your media class.

thebigblue 說...

Send you a song by R.E.M.


Everybody Hurts (R.E.M.)
When your day is long and the night,
the night is yours alone
When you're sure you've
had enough of this life,
well hang on
Don't let yourself go,
cause everybody cries
and everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong,
now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone
(hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go
(hold on)
If you think you've had
too much of this life,
well hang on
Cause everybody hurts,
take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts,
don't throw your hands,
oh now, don't throw your hands
If you feel like you're alone,
no, no, no, you're not alone
If you're on your own in this life,
the days and nights are long
When you think you've had too much,
with this life, to hang on
Well everybody hurts, sometimes

baileylatte 說...

加油!

chanchan 說...

太陽出來了!!

日不落 說...

無緣在北角,
還願你一切安好!

同事閒人 說...

"Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadow. It's what sunflowers do.""Happiness or unhappiness is often a matter of choice.""We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope."

venus 說...

Miss Lee, please do not be unhappy.

愛飛的人 說...

Miss Lee ,我好鐘意星期日ar!!!!

林輝 fred 說...

Gloomy Sunday 是自殺歌, miss lee 你唔好嚇大家...

小老師 說...

Miss Lee,

Add oil......

winwinlo 說...

miss lee唔好咁灰啦~
我有d擔心你呀.....

hayley 說...

Miss Lee 請繼續努力!
前陣子見日不落時跟她說起妳。我很希望我校有如你一樣的老師。
請加油!將來可在通識課程上交流交流!:)

Tree Noh 說...

忘記過去,展望將來,支持你.

思存 說...

撐住啊miss lee~

MissLee 說...

各位,謝謝你們的鼓勵。如果你問我,這件事繼續下去,我也不知怎樣處理!港燦問,how can sweep the gloomy days away?我去了剪頭髮,和看Gloomy Sunday!然後緊記,我的生肖沉寂多年後終於發圍,咁囉。唔會跳既,聽完GLOOMY SUNDAY都唔會,因為屋企BILLIE HOLIDAY的版本未夠慘…

我覺得整件事似一個太極,或者經濟學上的經濟週期,物極必反,終會循環。有學生說,雖然MissLee憎我地,但我地絕唔會憎佢!今天同事替我跟學生傳遞訊息,你在我的那兩篇文章尋尋覓覓,也找不到我說過恨3Y的,我只是痛,雖然李老闆建持我係嬲(都話無囉)。不過你們知道,再解釋,沒用。你找我親身說,我有很多話要說。

說實在,這幾天我有點穿了曾蔭權董建華鞋子的感覺。我有沒有學懂一點東西﹖有。放假慢慢分享。

特別鳴謝同事e、同事閒人、YY、日不落、公園仔、JIM兄、MARTIN兄、CHANCHAN兄、STEPHA、JOJO等等,名單很長,未能盡錄!

PS︰JOJO,我SEND了MAIL去你舊ACCT。請CHK。

Eric 'Spanner' 說...

自家事紛紛擾擾,未能,也未敢在鋒銳之時打點甚麼。

見妳如此,鬆了一口氣。

保重。

sunfai 說...

Miss Lee 辛苦。加油努力!

肥榮@西九龍貧民區 說...

Dear Miss LEE,
You are not alone.
Please never give up!

高文 說...

做咩都要有火
唔好比佢熄
Miss Lee, 加油!

male 說...

Hey Miss-Lee, You will get through this. I'm sure.

港燦 說...

越唱越強

詞 : 舒文

笑我殺蚊也不夠膽 笑我的天性不夠奸
樂觀的心不冷我全憑傻勁 行過重重難關
憑信心得到稱讚

我要放心放膽去沖 我要上廣闊的太空
括出幾分英勇要忘懷沉重 前進才能成功 從空中可給操縱

* 我信天真的鬥志 雖挫敗仍然嘗試
蝕底過當做投資 滿腦太多好主意 從此懷著大志
(信我會有天可以 憑聲音去完成大志)

要越唱越強 艱辛波折別去想 再放聲高唱 唱到底仍鏗鏘
我越唱越勇找到方向 即使一個亦夠響 我已索性不理
你會否熱情來欣賞 我決心不理型像 發洩我想

我繼續狂唱 唱到自信更高漲

我要隻身去膽搏膽 跌痛也一個人承擔
遇到些少感歎我仍憑傻勁 來抗衡來平反 如孤單都懂得撐

Repeat *

要越唱越強 艱辛波折別去想 再放聲高唱
我會到聲嘶仍然鏗鏘 我越唱越勇找到方向
即使一個亦夠響 我已索性不理 你會否熱情來欣賞
我 決心 一個前行 我信我想 懶理別人自信堅強更高漲
憑我態度全力再上 到世界絕嶺演唱

我越唱越強 艱辛波折未去想 再放聲高唱
唱到底仍鏗鏘 我越唱越勇找到方向 即使一個亦夠響
我已索性不理 你會否熱情來欣賞 我 決心 一個前行
我信我想 懶理別人自信堅強更高漲 憑我態度全力再上
到世界絕嶺演唱

(唱到自信更高漲 放肆放任的去唱 來年定了方向
唱到倦了也想唱 唱到倦了不想唱 我會蠍力的去唱
全憑自信去高唱)

aahsun 說...

miss lee,

to me, a good teacher has various quality (i did teach for 3 yrs part time and 4 years full time before i left to US. it is a teacher to teacher sharing).

teaching a good class is one thing, whether one has the awareness of what education should be and continously work within a decaying system is another.

it is never easy.

dear dear miss lee, there are always students who can be inspired and touched by you. i always think, if there is only one student in each class that s/he has some kind of realization -- s/he needs to care about more about life and our culture, i feel grateful already.

and somehow, some students understand, they just don't voice out. they remember what we said, and it may last for all their life.

please don't give up.

it is always difficult to raise criticism. many people play safe and avoid conflicts. so, it is very brave to raise issues, especially to those very close to our living. it is something a responsible person (in a civic community, not simply demoncracy) doing.

hang in there pal.
it is natural to be upset and frustrated.
pls stay strong!

匿名 說...

會過去的,總會過去~
開心點吧!

eggsplash 說...

大家一齊唱「迎春花」啦!

墨屎蕉 說...

加油呀。

你是好老師,那天遊行你還不忘備課,通識科由無到有,課課都要花時間預備,沒有識見和那份教的熱誠,怎會/能付出這樣的心機?

網上的討論,是生活的學習吧。你和學生雖然都傷,但你沒有把blog關了,沒有把文刪了,仍讓他們有理的無理的說、討論。你是在教呢。這是很好的一課,可見你很開明。

開明的老師,又有心機教、又有識見教,可能當中因為不小心而犯了禁(卻必未是錯),仍是好好的老師。

加油呀。

MissLee 說...

無事、無事…不過搏下同情啦…因為還有點心悸。原來壓力的呈現是這樣的,胸口疼痛,食不下嚥,會作嘔。李太話我瘦左d。不打緊,剛好襯托剪短了的頭髮。

燦兄,我的感覺是,原來燦兄會唱歌嫁~~

亞晨,我也是馬後炮地這樣想。一班裡那會全部學生也賣你帳。但有一個、兩個學生默默記著你的說話,就很足夠了。我不知道是誰。有些我認為會記牢我教過的,原來沒有。有些我沒有做過班主任的,卻記牢了。人很有趣,對不對﹖還有些對人性的分享,後續。

剛巧,今天又想到許志安和車浣浣的'會過去的'。呵呵。

迎春花﹖也好。蛋,可惜你看不到我在李太面前一面唱、一面跳舞!

謝謝各位的鼓勵、謝謝。

新亞院歌︰

手空空、無一物。
路遙遙、無止境。

艱險我我奮進,困乏我多情

千斤擔子兩肩挑

正。

加油!!! Olivia 說...

Misslee,
Pls be =]!!!你千萬千萬不能..,我們已經不起這些心靈重創。加油.支持你
xo Olivia

同事E 說...

See, you have so many fans cheering you up!

I envy you!

It proves something as well! Needless to say!

Have a nice holiday and enjoy the cookies. Beware! Don't eat too much ya!

sf 說...

總之呢, 珍重珍重, 這是我新亞精神呀, missy.

點解好似少左句,咩咩"結隊向前行"呢呵 :P

bull the helena 說...

you're having psychosomatic symptoms: chest pain etc. many literatures say, chinese people tend to convert psychological problems into physical symptoms.

observe your mood etc. seek professional help when needed.

bull the helena 說...

珍重珍重.

jojo lam 說...

send去我新acc丫>v<
我自己都唔記得舊果個-_-
我個名有

匿名 說...

對不起
只想問這是誰的畫作?

BilDub 說...

This is the original Hungarian version:

Szomorú Vasárnap




László Jávor



Szomorú vasárnap száz fehér virággal
Vártalak kedvesem templomi imával
Álmokat kergetô vasárnap délelôtt
Bánatom hintaja nélküled visszajött
Azóta szomorú mindig a vasárnap
Könny csak az italom kenyerem a bánat...

Szomorú vasárnap

Utolsó vasárnap kedvesem gyere el
Pap is lesz, koporsó, ravatal, gyászlepel
Akkor is virág vár, virág és - koporsó
Virágos fák alatt utam az utolsó
Nyitva lesz szemem hogy még egyszer lássalak
Ne félj a szememtôl holtan is áldalak...

Utolsó vasárnap





Rezsô Seress



Ôsz van és peregnek a sárgult levelek
Meghalt a földön az emberi szeretet
Bánatos könnyekkel zokog az öszi szél
Szívem már új tavaszt nem vár és nem remél
Hiába sírok és hiába szenvedek
Szívtelen rosszak és kapzsik az emberek...

Meghalt a szeretet!

Vége a világnak, vége a reménynek
Városok pusztulnak, srapnelek zenélnek
Emberek vérétôl piros a tarka rét
Halottak fekszenek az úton szerteszét
Még egyszer elmondom csendben az imámat:
Uram, az emberek gyarlók és hibáznak...

Vége a világnak!

MissLee 說...

Sorry, 唔記得答,這是Degas的畫作。

allan 說...

The nightmare is over.

The actual day has begun.

Enjoy the newly born

glowing Sunday